Is This Weird?

I don't fantasize about what i am going to paint. Not really. I don't spend much time thinking about what i am going to do . Or even dream about the very act. I don't dream of painting this or that. not often at least. I simply act. I do dream about art. but i never dream about process. I mostly dream or fantasize about life.

But suddenly when anyone asks about it. Or really anything at all I find i can talk for days about art. About painting. About life. For me they are all connected. I find that when prompted i can see just how much it is on my mind.

Should I be fantasizing about what i paint? or what to paint next?

Also, When given an artistic problem I can always find a visual solution. I think. Except my own. I don't know what my fantasy is in art. I have no direction home. Not Yet.

But I do have goal. I want To change not art lovers. But i want bring truth to everyone that everyone is an artist. I want them to know and feel their very life and the love of it. I want them to be touched. i want them to live. That is what I want my art to do. Because i have felt that before. I know. And I want to give it everyone that has ever lived. For everyone in the future