Fuck Being A Pussy I have to Commit

Fuck Being A Pussy I Have to Commit. I Have to Commit myself absolutely and entirely to the making and absorbtion of Art.

Will I miss out on this world?
Or is How I see the World?

I am so often filled with doubt or at least I don't spend enough time in studio. Why? do i really only fool myself in to loving it? or do I really love it?
I DO.
I simply am being a Bad lover. I need to be a better lover. I need the attraction to draw me in more. I need to care and give a shit about it or else it will leave me. I have to fight past frustration. Please don't let me stop.

I just am scared of Stifling my knowledge of other things?

Like a young man in love with the woman he will marry i scared about missing something.

But I suppose I Know.

But all I know and Need to know is taht I love this. I love it perfectly. I can't stop thinking about making art. I only fight the thought of making it with thinking about women. But I suppose. I don't know


COMMIT