Today
1:09am
mark, most importantly
don't put a timetable on it
but don't put off this event
time shifts everything
it is the curse of mankind
i've been putting it off and off
hoping to be better prepared
but time slips through my fingers
if you feel the pain of time slipping through your fingers
do not let any more run away with parts of you
i wish i could tell you more
and i can talk forever about things like this
but all of that is nothing in the face of action
it is mere words
i know
how terrible it is to know
it may see melodramatic
but you know i actually tried to forget all of this stuff over the break?
but seeing her again killed me when i got back here
i know
i really do
i most sincerely understand
so how about you man?
anything precipitate this crisis?
enough about me
you've given me enough food for thought for a while
I guess
I didn't really enjoy my work
or best I saw what I did didn't really do anything I was proud of
i mean over the winter
especially when confronted with my grandfather
who is doctor
I wanted to feel that my struggle is worth something
but I look ahead and around me and I am scared that my youth will pass, and time will pass
and I will work somewhere
and never feel satisfied
like i did when I was young
one should not be paralyzed about fear for the future
rather one should work hard to get there
i suppose but if i follow my heart
occupy your time with worthwhile things
and you will be a worthwhile human being
there is little bread and warmth for me
and worse
worst of all
is if there is no bread and warmth for me
how can there be bread and warmth for my family
and will i forsake their pride in me
?
be strong
your family has pride for you
even when you don't have pride for yourself
strive to make yourself worthy of their pride
you're right. it just seems so beyond prediction.
beyond calculated action
that's the way things are
distinctions here are unimportant
improper even
for us, family is everything
yes they are
have faith in your work
but how do i make them understand that i understand that
do what you know is right
and don't doubt yourself so much
the rest should follow naturally
like you said
i hope
words can only convey so much
in the end, it is our actions that can prove the depth of our intentions
yeah
i will act
don't worry about proving yourself
it is enough that they're your family
just do what you know needs to be done
and don't feel guilty when you divert yourself
just know when not to divert yourself
it's useless to feel remorseful afterwards
thanks
i feel better
me too bro!
hahaha
lo
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it's funny how these somber things do that
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