I've become squalid and terribly lazy. Fat as a goose. I need Goals. I need to stick to them.
So Short Term Goals?
Driver's license in two weeks
Get a Job. In retail. Ugh.
Paint. 4 Days week Minimum. Get a Sketchbook. Sketch. You're Dead If you Don't.
Finish Iliad and Odyssey, All the F. Scott Fitzgerald. Ulysses. and Gravity's Rainbow. Maybe Dostoevsky.
What Is my Long Term Goal?
I want none of This
Absolutely none. Besides College Professor But That even sounds submissive. I've decided I have problem with authority and independence. I want as much authority and Independence as possible in the world. I don't want to isolated but I want to always be amongst equals and never below and always above.
I don't want a profession that helps people. God I hate helping nameless faceless no people. I want to help real people. Or Not even I don't want to help people. i want people to help themselves. I want to be strong amongst the strong. I want to have no concept of The Pack. I want The pack to be individuals. True to themselves before all others. Unrelenting in their selfishness. Or more truthfully in their self.
But I do need to pay off debt. Priority One
Become a trucker? There is a mass shortage and well if I do it for a Few years I get to see America. Have Stories. Etc. And Pay off my Debt. if their is a need. Plus it's a pretty Lone Wolf shit.
Work for Dad in Real Estate? I Guess But I need to Leave Home.
A soldier? Possibly Really Not really. but Yes Heroically I suppose. But Also to pay off debt.
I need a Living. Priority two.
I really don't want to work for artist as in at a museum or gallery. Those suck. Just Suck. I'd hate to be a center for or National Endowment Folk either.
I want something not at a desk. I want something uncomfortable and challenging.
What will pay for possessions. Stay A trucker? No. Too Far from Studio.
Be like dad in Real Estate? I'll consider it.
Professor.. Hmm I suppose this plan is if I don't get in to A master's program.
Electrician. Construction Worker? Shipping and Packing? probably not
House Painter. Repairman. Yes but Only if I am given relative independence.
A wielder. That'd be sweet. Carpenter.
I am clear on this. I don't ever want to apply my art. my art is for me and for me alone. It's for the world only in the sense that it's made in this world and typifies and summates my experience. But i will never channel this for purely for profit. That is the truth. It is what I stand by.
Never gonna be graphic Designer. never going to be studio photographer. never Going to really be photographer. Not gonna be doctor. A lawyer. A dentist. A Engineer. A It guy. A historian. A critic. A Journalist. a detective. A private Eye. A sound engineer? Record Producer? A desk Junkie. An Analyst. A Pro blogger. Ick that's gross. stripper. Prostitute. hitman. I guess a life of crime wouldn't be bad but I think it would interfere with my ultimate goals. I Swear i will never work for Bureaucracy. My Arch Enemy. Bureaucracy is nihilism. I will never be a day trader. An economist. Work for the government in any permanent Faculty. Never work for FBI, CIA, Etc.
I do need possessions.
I want to always eat Well. Beautiful Meals. Beautiful Restaurant. I need to Drink Well. Eat and Drink Amongst Friends as often as possible. Drink The BEst and the worst. Eat the Best and the worst. Strive For Variety. Strive for changing evolving diet.
Nightclubs? Probably Not going to those. Bros never really appealed. Nor Casinos.
Travel Well. In style I suppose. but more importantly Often and comfortably.
I need a good Computer and fast internet. A scanner. Low Maintenance maybe stick with apple/we'll see. I need no frivilous Technology Aka E Reader. I need my cell phone to be efficient.
A Car. A station wagon Bmw from the 1990s 3 series. A Jeep Cherokee meh. The Saab. I'd love a motorcycle if i could use it often. A Honda CB. Certainly a Naked Bike. A C Class Wagon. A Saab Wagon. A Volvo Wagon v70.
Furniture. Clean and Modern. I will not fuck around with Chinese Furniture or Ikea. Something Sensible.
House Ware. Not just from Ikea. Well made. Industrial In purpose.
A good Soundsystem. Clean. Hopefully One built by Father.
A fine collection of Books
No Tv.
A Projector for Films. absolutely No cable. Direct Tv. Utilize Tv Minimally.
Clothing needs to be clean practical. Military Surplus. American Made stuff. minimize imported shit. So Red Wing Boots. American Apparel. Military Surplus. More stripes. More whites. More collard shirts. No polos. More V Necks. Jeans as usual are Levi's. No More Sneakers. Really Avoid it. No short sleeve collard Shirts. Nothing with a collar should be short sleeved. No Shorts unless they are made by yours truly. Never Fancy. Never more then a Few Simple Lines. Use Common Sense.
Some Art work Made by Peers. Enough Money to see Theatre and Ballet, Opera and the Orchestra.
I need a place to live and do as I must Live.
Astoria, Brooklyn, Long Island City, Chicago-Bucktown/Bridgeport, Historic Core L.A. Are the places I currently Consider post- Annandale.
Sincerely Leaning towards L.A. Just because.
A Studio Apartment.
A Studio
Near a Library.
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