A Matt Conversation

Why have i met so many people who are brilliantly smart... but just gave up in terms of profession... In order to have an easy simple life? Will i be like this? Can stop it? I'd rather be tragic then meaningless. Hard work?

For example Kevin my mom's boss, my father, As matt has explained his father, are all very much smarter than me. But why? I am proud of them for their sacrifice in some sense. But i see they could be so much more. What did they get in return for their general lack of ambition.

For my daily toil, I wish it's net effect to empower and embolden humanity with dignity and empathy.

That is why i see those professions and lives as meaningless in net effect. I cannot be change but i can be the catalyst for it. Change is brought about by the mass. Catalyst is the individual.

I think I just have to be harder on myself and enforce the impossible on me. It's the only way to get out of bed. To have to accomplish the impossible.