Relationships

This next post, my 200th, is credited to a conversation with Professor Robert Martin, his wife, and half of my symbolic logic class. And E H Gombrich.

First, The conversation last night was over chinese from the golden wok. Thank god not kline food. Oh god. So the conversation began as a question of whether there are any other Symbolic Logic jokes that Professor Martin remembers. After the conversation takes it meander like a river. We come across an argument that Martin had with wife on Ontology. Martin said she always won. He would say that "God exists" because we, including atheists by virtue of describing God, give God a variety of features in Omniscience, Goodness, Omnipotent, etc. And by giving God all of these qualities eventually we must give God the quality of existing because to have any of the above qualities one must exist. To which Professor Martin's wife countered, He certainly does not need to exist because image a Christmas present. I used to give it a variety of tangible qualities, it is a scooter, book, a jack-in-the-box, etc. But it was her imagination that gave those qualities to it. When Christmas came the present was obviously no of the things that we gave it. God is dependent on the imagination. And meeting him would be very dissappointing.... That part is influenced by All That-David Foster Wallace on the New Yorker page.

Second, E H Gombrich, hero of mine, describes how art is a cryptogram. It is based on relationships between colors and figures and form. the audience can only decipher it when the cryptogram when it has completed the relationships.

The problem i see for me is that i do not like to complete paintings. Leaving them indecipherable. It don't like finishing these relationships because they can be disappointing. Like our real life relationships. I am scared to start paintings as well probably because I can't bring it in myself to start a making the visual relationships. It is because i am so affectionately attached to my imagination that the reality of making can be horrifying.

Holy fucking shit... that last part was a revelation that i personally was not expecting.

This is something i need to resolve. I need to be daring.